All your emotions towards me are fake!

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"I think a lot.. I think too much.. I know the truth now the whole fucking truth"

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Thank god I released all this anger within me on paper.

I was inspired in a past experience also what really triggered it was this song called Chelsea smiles by Bring the horizon -> [link]
the lyrics are powerful and angsty but metaphorically I can relate to it.
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I know I felt like this and also people to.
here's the lyrics to the song.

-->I've got a secret,
its on the tip of my tongue,
it's on the back of my lungs.
and i'm gonna keep it,
I know something you don't know.

It sits in silence, eats away at me.
It feeds like cancer. This guilt could fill a fucking sea.
Pulling teeth. Wolves at my door.
Now falling & failing, is all i know. This disease, is getting worse.
I counted my blessings, now ill count this curse.

The only thing I really know - I can't sleep at night.
I'm buried but breathing in regret.
I may look happy, but honestly dear. The only way I'll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear.
I see the vultures, they watch me bleed.
They lick there lips as all my shame spills out of me.

Repent, Repent! The end is nigh!
Repent, Repent! We're all going to die!